Misery, misery, misery, that's what you've chosen.

New Years Eve.

Could I possibly have chosen a worse two week period during which to under take an all liquid diet?  I'm four days in now, and this is just miserable.  Since Monday, I haven't eaten a bite of solid food.  Nothing but protein drinks (low sugar, low carb, low fat, high protein) and some broths with a little sugar free jello to shake things up.  And it's like the week I decided to do this, every food that I love is right around me.  Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday weren't too bad because I had work to keep me occupied and I don't tend to eat a lot during the day anyway.  But coming home each night to the wonderful smells of home made dinner, etc., was just torture.  My wife's family is in town and my home and been something like home base for the whole crew so they've all eaten here.  One night I came to huge plates of barbecued ribs.  One night it was four roasted chickens w/ rice and fresh bread.  It was the bread that was the most tempting! 

Yesterday, I attended the funeral of a cousin of mine who died really young from a heart attack.  He was also skinny as  a rail for his whole life, so is there really a point to this weight loss thing?  Anyway, after the ceremony we retired the church where the proceeded to serve baked ham with cheesy potatos and rolls and then dessert.  Whose idea was this? 

Funny thing is I can't say that I've been all that hungry.  The protein drinks do a decent job of knocking down actual hunger pains, but it doesn't do anything for the smells of food and look of food and desire to have more flavors available to you than just vanilla and chocolate.   The first few times I drank the broth I thought it was good too, but right now just the thought of broth makes want to hurl.  The depressing part is that I'm only 4 days into this thing.  I've got 10 days more to go!  Maybe next week will be easier once I get back to work and I'm not moping around the house all day.

Oh, and did I mention I sick also?  Got a wonderful little head cold that has my sinuses clamped shut tight.  Makes it hard to sleep at night because I can't breath so I end waking up every few hours.  Oh, and my baby boy seems to have it too!  So he comes to my bed about 3:00 a.m. and from then until about 7:30 a.m. we just hack and cough at each other. 

My wife has been a wonder during this whole thing, probably because she suspects that at any moment I'm going to lose it and go on a food binge and start gorging myself on ding dongs and slurpees.  Hopefully, we can avoid that spectacle.  She keeps telling me that it's only two weeks and I can do it.  It broke my heart to tell her that it's actually 4 weeks because I have to stay on this misery for two weeks after the surgery!  Yeah, the lady from the doctor's office forgot to remind me about that when we decided to do the single incision operation.  I wonder if I can't just be put into suspended animation for two weeks.